...and it's only May!

Hot. HOT. HOT!!!! I am, right now, complaining of the heat and it's still May! I was tellling dh today that I seriously think I have a medical (or maybe it's mental! ) condition in that I cannot tolerate the heat! I'm glad the sun is shining, but why does it have to be 90 degrees and so darn humid? Sticky, sticky, makes me feel so icky! Who'dathunk that I could rhyme under such unpleasant conditions? What would I do if I had to live someplace like Florida? I'd have to become a recluse and never leave the house! Being hot is not one bit enjoyable for me and it's only May!

Brag and brag...blah, blah, blah!

In this day and age, I know the world is no longer how it used to be. I know that parents can be intolerable at their child's academic and sporting events...I know this. Sad as it may seem, I've experienced it at soccer games for dd, who by the way, is only in 2nd grade. It's going to happen, no matter how repulsive it may be, it just goes with the territory.

That being said, I am not, and I repeat...am not ready for this nonsense where ds is concerned. He's 4 years old, a preschooler, entering kindergarten in the fall. Is it really necessary for this bragging and what-not to go on for the preschool sect? I don't want to hear how brilliant your child is, I don't want to hear how he has soooo many friends or how he knows all the kindergarten requirements already. That's all well and great but please keep that information to yourself. I say this, not because my child achieves any less, not because I feel I'm a bad mother...none of that! I just don't need to hear every detail of how wonderful your child is! I fully understand being proud of your child, but why do you feel that everyone needs to know this, especially when it comes out as full out and out bragging and not an integral part of the conversation. Again, I do not have sour grapes...at the risk of sounding like one of "those" parents, there is quite alot to brag about with dd already, details of which I have not shared with anyone outside of my family. What's the point? Why would I need to tell everyone....to make myself look good?? I just don't get it.

I apologize if I've offended anyone reading this. It's just how I feel. I have zero tolerance for this and I'm in for a good 14 more years of it!! How will I ever survive??

Which way to go?

I'm having one of those days where I don't know which way to go...or shall I say, which way my life is going.

Ds starts kindergarten in the fall, so I know my SAHM days are numbered. I could stay at the store where I work now with more hours, but I decided I would instead be a Teacher's Assistant. I have taken the courses required, I have to take the state test in June and then I have to hope to find a job, preferably in my childrens' school. There is something about the place I work now though. It is independently owned, the owner is as good as gold and I can't help but wonder if I'm making a mistake by leaving there.

Why is it that at 37 years old, I don't know any more of what I want to do with my life than I did when I was 17 years old? How can that be? I have sooooo much regret. I'm actually an intelligent being (not intended to be boastful) and I could have been soooo many things. I didn't go away to college, I attended college locally, which I find, was the BIGGEST mistake I could have ever made. How come I feel as though I never had a calling in life? How I wish there was a "magic someone" who could point me in the right direction and lead me down the right path.

I can't help but wonder, will I ever figure this out?

So uncomfortable

I had to go to the GYN today...yearly checkup time. As I was sitting on the table in my pretty gown waiting forever for my doctor to surface, I got to thinking...are there any women out there who are comfortable and more importantly, relaxed, during this exam??? I can't imagine it. You know what's coming and for those 5 minutes or so of the exam, you feel completely violated. Don't get me wrong, I love my doctor and am quite comfortable with him, but the whole process is just so....uncomfortable. I almost asked my doctor if he ever comes across any women who he feels are completely relaxed, but then I thought, he might think I'm nuts for asking, so I didn't.

Oh well, such is the life of a woman, I guess.

Harrassment by alphabet embellishments

I am constantly being harrassed by my alphabet embellishments! No wonder I always struggle with titles! No matter how many alphas I have, I never have the right color, the right size, or the right look. And don't even get me started about the correct letters!!! It never fails, I am always out of a letter that I need. Today it was a "C"! Can you imagine? A stinkin' "C"? What are all the words that I've been spelling lately with "C"? This is all crazy, crazy, I tell ya!!