Where'd you go?

Sing along:
(song lyrics by Fort Minor)

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Of course I'm speaking about my MOJO!! This song is perfect for my missing mojo. Oh the torture of it all! I've had so much time to scrap today and I hate EVERYTHING that I've done. Maybe it's because the pictures I've been working with lately haven't been exactly perfect? I don't know, but it better come back...asap, because I can't take this much longer!

So, play it again Sam:

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Uncertainty (reader warning: may be boring)

I have been going crazy lately. I've been hoping to get a job with the school district as a Teacher's Assistant. The last postings I applied for (on Friday) are opened until the close of business September 8th. Being that September 8th is a Friday, I won't hear anything until the following week! Meanwhile, I'm in a state of confusion and uncertainty and it's killing me.

So....I had a huge discussion last night with dh and my mom & sisters. My problem is that I can stay at the job where I'm currently working part-time, with more hours. The beauty of this is that it's a locally owned store, it's very personal, and I know that the owner, P, will do anything for me. If I stay there, I will have flexibilty to do things...like attend school parties and chaperone field trips....things that mean a lot to me. If I get a job with the school district, chances are there will be no flexibilty to do these things. I know that P will let me leave if one of the kids gets sick, or leave early for school half days. Of course, the drawback to staying at P's is that I won't have all the time off as a teacher's assistant would. He did tell me that he would be willing to give me the summer's off, so long as he has it covered, but there's no guarantee. And then there are all the breaks...Christmas, mid-winter, spring. Those would be a problem, although I know my mom could watch the kids if need be.

After the big discussion last night, I think we alll seem to be thinking that P's is the way to go. The flexibility is key especially right now while the kids are still so young. I keep telling myself I'd have to be a fool to leave a place where everyone is so good to me and that I can basically do what I want. Then there's the part of me that thinks I'd have to be a fool to stay in a retail job when I can get out and only work 180 days a year as a Teacher's Assistant. I'm going to talk with P tonight and see if he's willing to give me the hours I'm looking for. I'm just so afraid of making the wrong decision.

Make it work!

I cannot wait for Project Runway to be on tonight! I know it's kinda silly to be so excited about a TV show but with so many of my other programs on hiatus for the summer, it's nice to have something to watch. This show just amazes me. I cannot believe some of the talent. The challenges are so....well...."out there" sometimes and I am always shocked and amazed to see the creativity that the designers possess. Last week they made outfits out of recycled garbage! For the life of me, I couldn't figure out how they were going to pull it off. Oddly enough, I actually thought a few of the outfits looked pretty, I even thought I'd wear them myself, garbage and all! And Tim Gunn!! Oh I love him! He is pure genius! I'm looking forward to what they'll be designing tonight...could be absolutely anything! I can't wait to see who will be catty & bickering...Laura, Jeffrey, Vincent, Kayne, Robert, or Angela? Hmmm...can't wait to find out!

What a world

(very random)

This whole terrorist thing has shaken me. Makes me down right sick in fact. I just can't believe the world that we live in. My niece is here and I can hear my kids & her laughing & playing together as I type this. I cannot imagine the shape the world will be in as they get older. I don't want them to have to live in such violent times. Breaks my heart. I want nothing but world peace for them. I never liked to fly. We were thinking of going to DisneyWorld in the spring and I thought that maybe, just maybe, I could suck it up for the 3 hours and fly to Orlando, for the sake of my kids. Now, I know that I can't do it, I just can't. It's a shame to have to live in such fear. I feel so bad for everyone who is away from home right now and has to fly back home in the coming days. Can you imagine the fear in their minds? I would think that even the most optimistic person would be rattled by this.

What a world. What a crazy, messed up world.